BRUCE MICHAEL HUBBELL

Sebastopol Ca USA 95472
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Faith: Science of Mind
Profession: Business consultant
Organization: Hubbell Consulting
UCS Member since: 12/10/2007
Last login: 3/28/2008
Last update: 3/10/2008

Personal Introduction
Over the last 35 years I have been attracted to the inherent authentic wisdom and practices of current and ancient religions and Spiritual traditions. I am utterly fascinated by the stories and lives of saints and realizers detailing their sufferings and awakenings. I am continually compelled by the mysteries, intrigue and adventures I experience personally discovering, first hand, the truth and principles of human life and God.

I am a Spiritual seeker.

I was born and baptized into a large intimate and loving Irish Catholic clan in Detroit Michigan. I was gifted with spiritually sensitive relatives. My grandmother was a genuine matriarch of the clan. She brought all 4'11" of her powerful personality to deeply and religiously effect with her behavior three generations - all 72 of us - with love, her use of the word of God and with impeccable Catholic formal practices and holy day observations. Most of the time she carried her rosary around her wrist - almost always when sitting. When many of us grandchildren and even my father her first child would come and see her on her back porch . . it would be the custom - we would greet her with laying our heads in her lap - she would sometimes rub our backs or talk "with us" in those chest close meetings and when she would be silent and hummm this would be the sign to be quiet and just be still and feel her and all the moment and she would extemporaneously pray to Jesus and God - she always insisted on holding us close or kissing us on the mouth and telling us she loved us as we looked into her clear happy, joyous and playful blue eyes - these loving eyes I had looked into and these gentle wise powerful arms I had felt since my birth. As a child and into my teens my parents or my father would take me to church every Sunday - I would sit next to him and follow the rituals. Then we would . . "after church go to Grandmas house on the way home for a visit". We rarely missed going over to grandmas or meet her at one of my relatives every Sunday - And every Sunday was the always accountable, unspoken agreed upon, Sunday Church attendance requirement as a Catholic. This time with my dad & mom and family was always a pleasure, interesting and sometimes delightfully brief. All of the men usually greeted each other with a mouth kiss; nothing to think about. I was blessed with my very caring, kind and loving friend for my first 3 years; my Spiritually conscientious sister; who at 17 ran away from home in her own pursuit of union with Jesus' calling to him and to become a Dominican nun - and she still is to this day. My cousin too was extraordinary in his stated feelings for God and Christ. He also demonstrated to all of us at an early age such a living spiritual conversion and attraction to commune and serve God that we knew before he knew he was going to be a priest - he went off to seminary at 14 and chose to leave a year before ordination. I observed and practiced Catholicism with all of the rituals of confirmation, confession, contrition and communion as a child. My religious childhood and young adult influences were from my family that was a practicing and solid Catholic clan of God: We were grounded, as a family, in a Spiritually based life style, demonstrating mutual love and acceptance - an undisturbed time of pure family bonding in a true family of Roman Catholics who genuinely practiced full rituals of ceremonial devotion to God, Jesus and Holy Spirit with each other.

But now - in looking back with clearer eye and understanding I see maybe it was the combination of the hypocrisies I witnessed in the adult educators and resident students while attending Catholic schools or experiencing the new global awareness and intense cultural transformations of the 60's that I slowly (and now I see I would never say it) became a doubting youthful agnostic.

In the 70's I was deeply impacted by others my age speaking words sharing deeper feelings and meanings through their radical music combined with finding esoteric books with writings and clues to this current evolving Aquarian Age coming out of New Thought. I craved more information and experiences through the Eastern approaches to communing with God and first heard the concepts of consciousness and enlightenment. I began to practice managing my own free will and directing my attention by practicing sitting quietly in meditation using the mantric techniques of Transcendental Meditation and the teachings of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. I began understanding and practicing the healing principles of conscious eating, exercise and experiencing the deep healing power and transforming effects of direct non-sexual massage touch. I participated in Est and many growth groups for 10 years; personally serving Werner Erhard. My head was blessed by the 16th Gyalwa Karmapa, Rangjung Rigpe Dorje in the Black Crown Ceremony where a monk tied a neck tight red braid mala I wore un-removed for over a year. I became a student practitioner and actively participated in the community of Adidam for almost 20 years and received the many teaching gifts of personally serving Adi Da, my Guru, in the Sangha of his devotees, many now dear friends. I had a one on one lunch with Ram Das only to discover he still had moments of unconsciousness with his own addictions, similar to my own.

In 1987, I became a practicing alcoholic for 14 years to cope with psychic, emotional and the continuing spiritual growth pains of my own unconsciousness. But is truly only by Divine grace I began to be attracted to recover my moral and emotional sanity through the practices, intimate fellowship and rigors of the social accountabilities of consistent daily practices, having a sponsor and working the 12 Steps; including the honor of helping other alcoholic sponsees in Alcoholics Anonymous.

Yet it was in 1973, at 28, while working as a boatman for a river rafting company in Colorado on a trip through the Lodore Canyon on the Green River in the Dinosaur National Monument, I experienced a single and unrepeated moment of spontaneous paranormal clairvoyance. I visually and audibly perceived, in real time for less than 3 seconds out of present time, a dangerous boat accident event that I did not understand at that moment which I shared with one of the clients in who's company I witnessed it - not knowing the event would actually happen to the two of us and 44 others the following day. From that moment on, I had the unanswered intuition that time and space were not as I had been educated, seen or known them to be, especially what we agree to about time and space even now in our education and research of quantum mechanics of physics and mathematics.

Since then I have had many spontaneous revelations, illuminations or Satori experiences.

I have been greatly influenced by the teachings and confessions of Eckhart Tolle since 2001. On March 8, 2008, I heard him speak in person for the first time. While his messages of presence, breathing and Being were simple it was truly his own physical presence; his manner of so gently speaking from such a conscious place of feeling awareness that I still feel impacted daily and moment to moment because of his siddhi transmission.

In 2005, I discovered Science of Mind with its Christian based teaching in understanding and applying the living words and intentions of Jesus and other Spiritual realizers. I discovered the active principles of how to recognize my unconscious misuse of Mind and the self created conditions that misuse creates emotionally and psychologically. I began taking classes and learned to choose to practice active real time awareness of prayer to consciously change my thought patterns. This form of true present time devotion and spontaneous heart felt prayer changed my experience of who we all are.

Then in fall 2007 my conscious attention began to relax and gently merge into a clearer consciousness of no-self providing me a release of my attention from the repetitive and chronic patterned attachments to my stories of my inauthentic self as a separate and fearful person.

During these years of empirical seeking I have observed a slow conversion of my emotional and intellectual understanding of our shared global community of this eternal living moment of Here & Now of the Divine Self; Itself as our very own individuated persons. I now comprehend this "event of Being" as the single, primal cause and purpose of the Universe; the only event that is occurring, expressed as the eternal Divine creativity - which is constantly reaching and developing only to know and grow Itself - in and as each of us.

Now, it is clear to me, there is no time - never has been - only this living present eternal moment event of the living Divine Itself.

Because of these years of experiences of personal obsessions, addictions and failures, Spiritual disciplines and practices I am inspired and moved to begin to write my own Spiritual manifesto:

"The Nature of Being - A theosophy on the experience of living"

My fundamental tenet and credo is this:

There only exists Divine Being and Divine manifestations. Everything is being caused by the Divine purpose of God to know and share Itself through the metaphysics and mechanics of Divine Mind.

There is not Divine time - no “"In the beginning . . ." or truly a past . . . there is "THE WORD" as stated in the Bible. There is and always will be Only the Eternal Beginning.

All of us have access to Divine strength to manifest. And actually we do so daily with our word and we have done so since our birth and will continue to do so Eternally. This Here and Now is the living beginning/moment of our individual discovery of the Eternal Divine Creative Event and Divine birth of ourselves as individuated Divine Being. No time here.

Yet it is a Being’s' conscious or unconscious (reactive) Choices in using Divine Mind through Its actions of words and deeds which defines a Beings level of confession of Its own realization –or enlightenment.

Divine Mind is always neutral, always good and only creates and manifests whatever we feed or meditate on through our thoughts!!

Everyone knows and feels the Divine presence - EVERYONE. Problems of unconsciousness arise because the Being does not have the discrimination to distinguish Itself from Its use or misuse of Mind.

Unconsciousness and emotional entanglements occur when a Being becomes stuck in Its use of Mind as It identifies or gets lost in Its own self invoked and manifested conditions of thought and form, resulting in more subsequent manifestations and processes by the Being attempting to use Mind to solve a self created problem in Mind. These "conditions" appear to the Being to be outside of Mind and mysterious to the Being. Yet these conditions come from the Being’s own attempts to use It’s limited understandings of how life works and how to use Mind to get out of the self created conditions of Mind.

Most of the time when the Being feels clear it is not because the Being is consciously getting out of Mind - –it is by fortune and design of the Being’s Spiritual path to grow Itself - but usually not by clear intention by the Being - as the intention some of us have been so gracefully given and have responded to by choosing to activate and surrender to a formal Spiritual practice.

Goals
- To participate, facilitate and incarnate the active global conscious process at the university level to study and research our Nature of Being as a legitimate New science - This will reveal our Divine Being and our already unconscious use of Divine Mind which creates all man made objects and technologies.
- To author: The Nature of Being - A theosophy on the experience of living
- To support our human culture to continue to distinguish and acknowledge the "shifts" of our conscious attention and comprehension of who we are from Mind to Being.